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Friday, 09 March 2007

  • I always said that would be it
    That I wouldn't stick around
    If it ever came to this
    And here I am, I'm so confused
    How am I supposed t oleave
    When I can't even move
    In the time it would've took to say
    'Honey I'm home, how was your day'
    You dropped a bomb where we live
    And just expect me to...

    Chorus:
    Forgive...that's a mighty big word
    For such a small man
    And I'm not sure I can
    I don't even know now who I am
    It's too soon for me to say Forgive

    Well I should ask but I won't
    Was it love or just her touch
    I dont think I want to know
    So get your things and get out
    Don't call me for a day or two
    So i can sort this out
    Well, youg might as well have ripped the life
    Right out of me right here tonight
    When through the fallin tears you said,
    'Well can't you ever just forve'

    Repeat Chorus.

    You know what they say
    Forgive and Forget
    Relive and regret
    But I just can't

    repeat chorus
     
    - "Forgive" by Reina

Wednesday, 03 January 2007

  • So yeah dudes, I'm back at the U, first day (rather second day) b/c it's January 3rd.  Why am I staying up instead of sleeping, because I got an 8 AM class tomorrow?  Well, I couldn't really sleep, trying to catch up with friends and stuff.  And of course feeling really hungry all of a sudden, and munching on a nice freshly made bowl of "Ah Tiao"; my brothers and cousin would know what it is.  But I haven't had this in such a long time, and my grandfather was so awesome for making not one, but two! batches of this (Thank you Gong Gong).

    Anyway, yeah, I definitely feel so rejuvenated and seeing everyone again.  Part of me's like this great feeling will definitely not last for a long time and it will only be a matter of time before I start getting so busy again and have to worry about school, academics, club obligations, and friends again.  But maybe this year will be different.  I've set a New Year's resolution to simply do well in school but overall just be happy in what I do.  Like all that worrying about silly drama last term and just confused about everything and everyone, I should care, but don't let it bug me where it's driving me nuts. 

    This is all in writing, but it's not reality, I know some of y'all gonna say, but once again, it's a resolution.  I would like to accomplish this and I know I won't be completely happy 24/7 (no one is), it's not realistic but at least for the most part, I would just like to let things go a bit and just see where they take me.  It's time to relax a bit (not with schoolwork but with life and friends in general), not overly obsess things that obviously aren't my business or that normally would not worry someone so much.  But maybe I just care too much or am OCD, but whatever.  I'll try and work hard at really bettering myself and surer of who I am and my abilities so that I can be a better friend to some amazing people at Union that I can proudly call the newest additions to my group of best friends, currently held firmly by some of the most influential people in my life in high school.  So I say to the Webbies and others, welcome to the club!

Monday, 25 December 2006

  • 01. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before? A whole bunch of things.

    02. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Didn't really believe in New Year's resolutions, cuz I hate breaking goals that I laid out for me.

    03. Did someone close to you give birth? No.

    04. Did anyone close to you die? Definitely not.

    05. What countries did you visit? China!

    06. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? Having my head back on my shoulders and really knowing what I want in life and in everyone.

    07. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 4/10, 11/02, 12/16.

    08. What was your biggest achievement(s) of the year? Those who are close to me will know.  But other than, graduating and doing well academically.

    09. What was your biggest failure(s)? Not being able to know what I wanted this year.

    10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Not many, surprisely.

    11. What was the best thing you bought? Updates to my winter wardrobe!

    12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Graduating high school, starting and surviving the first trimester of college (like I really deserve an award for this living through the drama and anguish)..

    13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? How a certain fucker fucked with my mind.

    14. Where did most of your money go? Um...yeah, I sorted spent it on clothes when I got back all in one sitting.

    15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Coming back home from China and from college (like really excited).

    16. What song will always remind you of 2006?  "Sexy Back", "Hold On", "Move Along"

    17. Compared to this time last year, are you
    i. happier or sadder? A LOT HAPPIER.
    ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter cuz I retired from running.
    iii. richer or poorer? Hell yeah richer from working.

    18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Volunteering.

    19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Worrying about silly people and silly things.

    20. How will you be spending Christmas? With the family, the most amazing people in the world.


    22. Did you fall in love in 2006? Did I?  I thought I did.

    23. How many one-night stands? Um...

    24. What was your favorite TV program? Grey's Anatomy, by far!  That show describes my life.

    25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I ain't much of a hater, but I do resent this one person for what he/she did to me.

    26. What was the best book you read? Angels and Demons

    27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Just all the random shit.

    28. What did you want and get? The greatest and most supportive friends ever.

    29. What did you want and not get? A meaningful relationship with ass.

    30. Favorite film of this year? Not really sure.

    31. What did you do on your birthday? Um...went out to dinner with one of my mom's friends and had a get-together (for the first time) at my house.

    32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? A meaningful relationship and a good person to be with.  But oh well, you can't rush things. 

    33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006? Um...summer and spring were okay.  Fall was just a complete disaster as I did not have enough long stuff for the cold.

    34. What kept you sane? Nothing this year, except my friends.  I was the most insane I ever was.

    35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? There have been way too many.

    36. What political issue stirred you the most? Gay marriage, gay rights, stem cell research, etc.

    37. Who do you miss? Good times in high school, as they had to come to an end this year. 

    38. Who was the best new person you met? All my close college friends. 

    39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006: "You can't choose who to fall in love with".  And also, "Just because you don't see them everyday 24/7 and don't get to hang out as much, they're still your best friends because you can trust and confide in them whatever you tell them."  Or "Distance does not define friends."

    40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "If you hold on for one more day, Can you hold on for one more day, Thingsll go your way, Hold on for one more day." and the rest of Wilson Phillips "Hold On"  and "Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong; Move along, move along like I know you do; And even when your hope is gone; Move along, move along just to make it through" - AAR "Move Along"

    Best of the Year:

    1. Party: Sig Phi that night in October where I got in randomly in 10 minutes and my Webbies could not find me.
    2. Show: GREY'S ANATOMY
    3. CD: Future Sex/Love Sounds
    4. Movie: V for Vendetta
    5. Song: "Sexy Back"
    6. Experience: Everything with my high school and college friends.
    7. Concert: Not this year.  Not a really big concert person.  But I did see Phantom Planet and the Ataris.
    8. Book: Um...don't remember.
    9. Month: December,  June
    10. Day: Dec. 16, 2006


    Worst of the Year:

    1. Party: TDX, completely overrated.
    2. Show: Wouldn't watch a bad show, cuz don't have the time.
    3. CD: Who gives a shit?
    4. Movie: Match Point
    5. Song: Weird Al's parody to "Ridin' Dirty"
    6. Experience: Having my mind toyed and fucked with.
    7. Concert: None.
    8. Book: None.  I don't have time to read anything, if it was bad.
    9. Month: October, November
    10. Day: Someday in the latter part of the first full week of November.

    Hopes for 2007:

    1. Predict something that you think will happen in 2007? More partying, random hookups??, a relationship?
    2. What do you hope changes about your country? A lot; let's come back to the middle y'all, and stay away from the right a bit.
    3. What do you hope for yourself? Intense focus and success in studies, the friends that matter, and of course, in myself.
    4. What do you hope for your family? More happiness, greater success, and appreciation for each other.
    5. What do you hope for your best friends? Anything and everything they hope and desire for.  And my love and support, for they have been the most amazing people I have ever met.  I could not have made it out alive was it not for them. 
    6. What do you hope for the rest of your friends? More or less, the same.
    7. Do you think any amazing medical advances will be made? Yes, medicine is advancing quickly.
    8. What is your hope for 2007? That mentally, I will be a much more happier and stronger person, able to deal with the challenges ahead (I need to be stronger).  And also to be more physically fit as well and eat healthier and further the relationships with my friends and family (people who matter). 

    During 2006:

    where were you when it began: On a cruise in the Caribbean coming back to Miami. 
    what was your new year wish? To get into a med program where I don't have to take the MCATs and end up in a great school and graduate high school but while still keeping my high school friends.
    how many boyfriends/girlfriends: None, maybe I should have.
    broke up: No bfs/gfs, no break ups.
    care to mention names? Look above.
    new friends: Many.
    name them: All my college friends, but those that really were there for me include Isaiah, Celeste, Elina, Dave, Megan, June, Sarah, Hyma, Simone, Steve.  But I love you all.
    had to say goodbye: Yes unfortunately to my high school friends when we left for college.
    missed anyone: Omg, like you won't believe.  Like my trackies and my entourage (Chris, Zach, etc.) when college was in a spiraling downhill.
    win anything? Yeah, a random purse at some Chinese school function but gave it to my mom (Of course), and of course the friendship and trust of a select few that I care about.
    best place you went to: China, Casey's beach house in Spring Lake.
    worst place you went to: The nasty-ass bathrooms in the more undeveloped portions of China.
    happiest moment: Reconciliation and bonding time with friends and my brother.
    how was your birthday: Always busy, because school is still in session when my birthday hits.
    best present: Friendship, love, support.

Tuesday, 19 December 2006

  • Thoughts during Winter Break '06

    I don't want a lot for Christmas
    There is just onething I need
    I don't care about the presents
    Underneath the Christmas tree
    I just want you for myown
    More than you could ever know
    Make my wish cometrue
    All I want for Christmas is you

    I don't want a lot for Christmas
    There is just one thing
    I need, and I
    Don't care about the presents
    Underneath the Christmas tree
    I don't need to hang my stocking
    There upon the fireplace
    Santa Claus won't make me happy
    With a toy on Christmas day

    I just want you for my own
    More than you could ever know
    Make my wish come true
    All I want for Christmas
    is you, youuuuu, ooh ooh baby, oh oh

    I won't ask for much this Christmas
    I won't even wish for snow,
    and I
    I just want to keep on waiting
    Underneath the mistletoe

    I won't make a list and send it
    To the North Pole for Saint Nick
    I won't even stay up late
    To hear those magic reindeer click

    'Cuz I just want you here tonight
    Holding on to me so tight
    What more can I do
    Oh, Baby all I want for
    Christmas is you, youuuu, ooh baby

    All the lights are shining
    So brightly everywhere
    And the sound of childrens'
    Laughter fills the air

    And everyone is singing
    I hear those sleigh bells ringing
    Santa won't you bring me
    The one I really need
    Won't you please bring my baby to me quickly, yeah

    Ohh ohh, I don't want a lot for Christmas
    This is all I'm asking for
    I just want to see my baby
    Standing right outside my door

    Ohh ohh, I just want
    you for my own
    More than you could ever know
    Make my wish come true
    Oh, Baby all I want for Christmas is you,
    you ooh, baby

    All I want for Christmas is you, ooh
    baby (repeat to fade)

    - "All I Want for Christmas (Is You)" by Mariah Carey

    Sometimes a man has to choose
    And do something he doesnt wanna do
    Do i live my life with you as my wife?
    Or do i go on and pursue my lifetime dream?
    i gotta do this for me
    Cuz if I dont I'll probably regret it
    But if I do I'll probably regret it
    How do I cope?

    CHORUS:
    How do you cope when
    the one you love is with somebody else
    And theres nothin you can do about it
    How do you deal with
    The fact that you had a chance
    But you chose to turn away for your career
    I gotta take it though its heartbreakin
    Its somethin that I had to do
    But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
    So how do I live..
    How do I deal without you

    Second Verse:
    Its killing me to know
    That your heart's with me
    But you're with him cuz I chose to be
    In this industry
    Money, shows and hoes come along with
    Luxury and pain
    Is all you see when you think about it
    But this is the life
    That I was given
    So i have to live it to the fullest
    But how do I deal in the meantime
    Without you

    [CHORUS]

    </3 Frankie J:
    How do you deal when
    you can't be with the one you love
    And the one that you love is with somebody else
    (I don't know, I don't know)
    And what do you do
    when you know she don't love him
    and she loves me but she just can't stand loving you far away
    (I guess I'm gonna have to just)
    You just deal with it, deal with it
    (I don't want to have to live with it)
    You just deal with it, deal with it
    (no, no, no)
    You just deal with it, deal with it
    (I don't want nobody else loving you)
    You just deal with it, deal with it
    (I don't want nobody else loving me)

    [CHORUS 2X] </3

    - "How to Deal" by Frankie J

    Yo, ain't seeing you in a minute, but I got something to tell ya, listen.

    See the thing about you, that caught my eye,
    Is the same thing that makes me change, my mind.
    Kinda hard to explain, but girl I'll try,
    you need to sit down, this may take a while.
    See this girl, she sorta looks, just like you.
    She even smiles, just the way you do.
    So innocent, she seemed, but I was fooled
    I'm reminded when I look at you.

    You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
    See her face whenever I , I look at you.
    Wouldn't believe all of the things she put me through.
    This is why I just can't get with you.

    Thought that she was the one for me,
    till I found out she was on her creep.
    OOOOO, she was sexing everyone, but me.
    This is why we could never be.

    You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
    See her face whenever I, I look at you.
    Wouldn't believe all of the things she put me through.
    This is why I just can't get with you.

    I know it's so unfair to you,
    that I relayed her ignorance to you.
    Wish I knew, wish I knew how to separate the two.
    You remind meeeeeeeeee

    Whoa whoa whoa whoaaaaa.
    You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
    See her face whenever I , I look at you.
    Wouldn't believe all of the things she put me through.
    This is why I just can't get with you.
    Got to let you go.

    You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
    See her face whenever I , I look at you.
    Wouldn't believe all of the things she put me through.
    This is why I just can't get with you.
    no no no.

    You remind me of a girl, that I once knew. All the shit she put me through!
    See her face whenever I, I look at you.
    Wouldn't believe all of the things she put me through.
    This is why I just can't get with you.
    You remind me of a girl that I once knew.
    See her face whenever I, I look at you.
    Wouldn't believe all of the things she put me through.
    This is why I just can't get with you.

    - "U Remind Me" by Usher

    [Intro]
    I don't understand why
    See it's burning me to hold onto this
    I know this is something I gotta do
    But that don't mean I want to
    What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
    I feel like this is coming to an end
    And it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
    I gotta let it burn

    [Verse 1]
    It's gonna burn for me to say this
    But it's comin from my heart
    It's been a long time coming
    But we done been fell apart
    Really wanna work this out
    But I don't think you're gonna change
    I do but you don't
    Think it's best we go our separate ways
    Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
    When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
    Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
    I think that you should let it burn

    [Chorus]
    When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
    But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
    Even though this might ruin you
    Let it burn
    Let it burn
    Gotta let it burn

    Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
    Hate the thought of her being with someone else
    But you know that it's over
    We know that it's through
    Let it burn
    Let it burn
    Gotta let it burn

    [Verse 2]
    Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
    Got somebody here but I want you
    Cause the feelin ain't the same by myself
    Callin' her your name
    Ladies tell me do you understand?
    Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
    It's the way I feel
    I know I made a mistake
    Now it's too late
    I know she ain't comin back
    What I gotta do now
    To get my shorty back
    Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
    Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
    Without my booo
    You've been gone for too long
    It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
    Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

    [Chorus]
    When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
    But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
    Even though this might ruin you
    Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
    Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
    Gotta let it burn

    Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
    Hate the thought of her being with someone else
    But you know that it's over
    We know that it's through
    Let it burn
    Let it burn
    Gotta let it burn

    [Bridge]
    I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
    On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
    I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
    On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

    [Breakdown]
    Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
    Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
    Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

    So many days, so many hours
    I'm still burnin' till you return

    [Chorus]
    When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
    But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
    Even though this might ruin you
    Let it burn
    Let it burn
    Gotta let it burn

    Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
    Hate the thought of her being with someone else
    But you know that it's over
    We know that it's through
    Let it burn
    Let it burn
    Gotta let it burn

    - "Burn" by Usher

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